Friday, October 1, 2010

Where did the last 8 months go??

I know everyone told me and I don't think I truly believed it until I had Jake. Time FLIES when you have a child! What a whirlwind the last 8 months have been!! Is it bad that I already have a slight case, emphasis on slight, of baby fever?? Why you ask?? Because Jake is no longer my small little sweet boy...he is now my 20 lb nearing 21-22 lbs big, still sweet, boy. Jake is changing everyday and keeping Kevin and I on our toes. NOthing is more special then wathcing the world through his eyes. I swear we can sit and watch him for hours! Here is what he is up to these days:

-20 lbs
-Eating an 8oz bottle every 4 hours with solids at lunch and dinner
-Holding his own bottle-so proud of him but sad that I don't have to hold the bottle anymore
-Has 3 teeth-2 on the bottom and 1 on the top-which I finally got a good look at and it's not the middle top tooth but the one next to it so he might have a snaggle tooth grin for a bit but he's so cute it won't matter!
-CRAWLING-wow he is in to everything!!!! We had to put all of my knick-knacks in the garage cause I was sick of putting them on the kitchen table. Our house is going to look pretty bare soon cause my plants are about to go as well since he loves pulling the leaves off and eating them.
-Sleeping from 7pm-7am-if we let him
-Happy as can be and so "easy"...literally he goes to anyone and is just sweet and happy all the time..unless another pesky tooth is coming in...there was a time when I didn't think these days would ever come
-Starting to pull up on his crib-which reminds me we need to lower the mattress
-Saying Dada!!!! That is the sweetest sound ever! We are working on Mama/Mommy and everyday I work on it with him and everyday he looks at me and says Dada. Oh well he can call me Dada all day long if he wants!

Here are a few downsides to him crawling...I have to clean the floor ALL.THE.TIME. Have I mentioned how much I hate cleaning the floors?? But nothing is worse then him crawling over to me and him turning over his sweet little hand and seeing dirt...yuck! I was talking to my mom about it and she is a clean FREAK! We were those kids that had to make our beds everyday no matter what and Sunday was always cleaning day. Mom actually told me she was never like that until she had kids...and now I understand why. He will put anything in his mouth including and not limited to-dust bunnies that reside in the corners of my living room and kitchen, checks for his tuition, his Daddy's flip flops (he likes to lick the bottom of those) so nasty, any paper product, and many other things, So needless to say we are working on being a clean as possible.

Ok well I gotta run..gonna go watch Jake jump in the Jumparoo...that kids can jump for hours! I'm still waiting for him to throw up!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

This quote sums it up...

A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for.” -Anonymous

I am an emotional sap these days! Maybe it's because my dear friend Laura just had her sweet baby Blake,  or maybe its because my other sweet friend Klusman is about to have her precious baby boy Grayson or  could it be because my amazing sister Mikah is about to have my longed for nephew Beckett! Or because we are looking for a part time nanny and the thought of anyone other then family watching him breaks my heart????

Holding Blake's little body in my arms made me realize how quickly they grow up and how much I should cherish every moment I have with Jake. I looked at Blake and could not believe that 3 1/2 short months ago Jake was that size. And at that same moment I became very sad because life is going by too fast and I have already forgotten the beginning of Jakes life. I know it makes me sad saying that as well but its true. The first few months are such a blur. I was tired and worn out and dreamed of the days when I could sleep thru the night.  I was also thinking everyday how I couldn't wait for Jake to be able to fit into his "big boy" clothes, sit in his Bumbo, start rolling over, sleep through the night etc. Now that is has all happened and is all happening I want to go back to the beginning when everything was new and he depended on me for everything! I look at Jake everyday and wish I could freeze time and keep him just as he is.

One thing I know for sure is that life is too short and is obviously  going by too fast and I am not going to waste one more minute on things that don't matter or things that take me away from my family!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Where does the time go?

Hello friends! My it has been awhile! To be completely honest blogging has been at the bottom of my list of things to do and my sister has pointed it out every day when she checks to see if I have updated my blog. Sorry Mikah! Well life has gotten more interesting and I am loving every minute of it. After many long discussions with the hubby we decided that me going back to work would be the best thing for our family at this time. It was a hard decision but I knew I needed to do it. So as soon as we decided I started looking and a job pretty much fell in my lap! I had talked to my now boss when I was pregnant and told him my situation and that I understood if he needed to hire someone immediately, which he did, but he said to call him and check in when I was ready to go back to work to see if there were any positions available. Well the day I finally decided to follow up with him was my lucky day as the person he hired for the original position didn’t work out and he needed someone ASAP! So I started the following Friday and I love it! Lucky me! I was happy and sad at the same time. As soon as I got the offer I started panicking thinking about who would watch Jake. He was only 8 weeks at the time and too young to go to daycare, in my opinion, so my wonderful mother offered to take care of Jake. It has worked out perfectly and has made the transition of me going back to work so much easier. I cried the first day but everyday gets easier! She is so amazing with him and has so much patience and is so in love with him...we are so lucky to have her!

Because I went back to work I made the incredibly hard decision to stop breastfeeding. Again I cried and agonized about it but starting a new job that didn’t really allow me to pump 3 times a day..I probably could have but I sit in a cube in a very open office and we have no private bathrooms! Kevin said I should just pump in the parking lot..good idea babe but no thank you! In the beginning I wasn't the biggest fan of bf but after we got into a routine I fell in love with it and so did Jake which made the decision that much harder. But after asking fellow mommy friends about formula I got the overwhelming response that Good Start was the way to go. I am pleased to say that he is doing great on it we couldn't be happier. Wait we could be happier if formula was free but we all know that will never happen so I will settle for a happy and poopy baby :)

Jake is changing by the second and growing like a weed. He is so juicy and cute...I just want to eat him! At his 2 month appointment he weighed 10 lbs 11 oz and was 22 inches long. Now that he is almost 12 weeks...I can't believe it...he is probably pushing 14 lbs and my mom measured him the other day and he is 24 inches long! He has really turned a corner these last few weeks and it so much happier and content. It's probably because of the fact that he is on formula now. My Mom and I were talking and we both think that the reason he was so fussy for the first 8 weeks was because he wasn't getting enough milk when I was nursing him. I really think the formula coats his tummy better and not only makes him a happier baby but makes him sleep longer. He now goes down about 8 pm, wakes up 1 time..if he wakes up at all, then Kev gets him up for his first bottle between 5:30 and 6 am if he doesn't wake up on his own. I still wake up multiple times thinking that I hear him but sure enough he is still asleep..gotta love the video monitor!

I finally have some pictures to post. I swear Jake is the cutest kid and pictures don't do his justice :)

I have much more to post about in the next few weeks! 2 of my best friends and my sister are having their babies and we are all counting down the days!

Life is wonderful....

P.S. Is there an easier way and better way to upload pictures???

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

A day in the life

Jake turned 5 weeks yesterday! I can't believe it has already been that long! He looks so different now and is really starting to fill out! He is still in newborn clothes and doesn't fit into hardly any of his 0-3 month clothes :( He is long and lean!!! I swear all baby clothes are short and they have a Baby Big and Tall clothing line??? Cause at the rate he is going I might need something like that :)

Good news is that he is on a schedule and has been since day 1...for the most part...and doing great! His acid reflux/colic is under control thanks to Colic Calm look it up! It has worked wonders for him! There are a few side affects to it ie. super messy (its black because of the charcoal) and it results in explosive black poop but I don't care I will take black poop over a screaming colicky baby anyday!

I can already tell that he is a creature of habit and the few times we have detoured from the schedule he showed us how much he did not appreacite it! We tried having people over a few times and both times he freaked out and screamed all night. He's not use to being passed around and it was loud in the house and he did not like it one bit!! So note to Mom and Dad..NO MORE least for now!

Yesterday I took him out in public for the first time...just to the bridal salon to watch Amanda try on a few wedding dresses..btw she found THE ONE and she is going to be the most beautiful bride! Anyways he was an angel and I have figured out that the car/carseat is his happy place so if all else fails and we can't get him to stop crying we put him in the car and drive around and he is out like a light! We even put him in his carseat in the house when he is fussy and he loves it! He hates the swing we have and the little lamb chair vibrates and he hates that as well he is much happier either sitting in his carseat or laying on his back staring at the wall or lights :) So here is our schedule..I say "our" as it's just as much my schedule as it is him schedule:

12 am
Nurse, burp, change,rock and put back down to sleep

3 am
Nurse, burp, change,rock and put back down to sleep

6 am
Bottle feed, burp, change,rock and put back down to sleep-sometimes he is is awake and doesn't want to go back down so Kev will put him on his activity mat, or put him back in his crib and put music on and he just lays there and looks around and usually puts himself back to sleep

Nurse, burp, change and then get him ready for the day, then we play for awhile ( I try to keep him up for at least 30 minutes if not longer, sometimes he stays up for an hour) then if he hasen't gone back to sleep I rock him and he goes back down for 1-1 1/2 hour until next feeding

Nurse, burp, change, waketime/playtime, then nap until next feeding

Nurse, burp, change, waketime/playtime/go on a walk etc, then nap until next feeding

Bath time and get him ready and changed for bed

Nurse, burp, change, then we usually put him in his lamb chair and not do anything really "active"with him and we keep things calm and not to loud. However, this is also when he gets fussy sometimes and cries..usually right when we are trying to eat dinner :) So sometimes he doesn't sleep until the 9 feeding and he just stays up the whole time. Sometimes I feed him at 8:30 pm depending on his mood. Sometimes he is really hungry at this time so I feed him early.

Swaddle, nurse, burp, change, rock and put down to sleep

Sounds a little like Groundhogs Day..huh?? There is usually multiple diaper changes and clothing changes in between all of this...he has peed out of his diaper a lot lately!! Another note to self..point the pee pee down Ashley!!!

All in all we are getting the hang of this and I am sleeping about 6-8 hrs every night..not in a row but still that's some good sleep and everyday is better then the last.

He is my angel :)

Again, no pics, they don't do him justice anyways he is much cuter in person :) But when I have sometime later today I will post some.


Sunday, February 21, 2010

Alot can happen in 5 minutes

Before Jake 5 minutes meant nothing to me. Now 5 minutes means everything. Alot can happen in 5 minutes! Here are some examples:

1) 5 more minutes of SLEEP!
2) 5 more minutes before I have to wake him up to feed him
3) 5 more minutes left of him breastfeeding
4) 5 minutes to hop in the shower and rinse off
5) 5 minutes to fold laundry.....load 9,001..babies might be small but they go thru alot of clothes
6) 5 minutes to empty the dishwasher...for the 1,000,987 time
7) 5 minutes to talk to Kevin...I totally see now why marriages become strained after children. Now more then ever its important to make time for "us"..even if it's just for 5 minutes of uninterrupted talking.
8) 5 minutes to eat something quickly before he starts or crying again

I could go on but you get the point....

Ok, well I have 5 more minutes and then it's time to feed him again...see :)

Friday, February 19, 2010

What I know now....

Here are a few things that I have learned in the short 2.5 weeks of being a Mommy:

1) All of the things that I "had" to register for that I thought were "so important" aren't at all! When I went to register I had no clue as to what I was doing. I was scanning things based of a list they gave me and to be honest I didn't even know what half of the stuff was. I was certain that the important things were high chairs, pack-n-plays, tummy time mats etc. When in reality all you really need are lots of diapers, wipes, onsies, nipple cream, wash clothes,swaddle blankets and lots of love and patience! At least in the beginning...
2) I could have read 1,000 books and nothing would have prepared me for what being a parent is really like! Don't get me wrong there are some great books out there..some of my favs are Baby 411, Happiest Baby on the Block and I am still on the fence about Babywise. My friend Jennifer gave me some good advice...take the meat from Babywise and nothing else. So thats what i'm doing and I can successfully say that he is on a feeding schedule. He wakes up on the dot when its time to eat. Nothing beat hands on experience!
3) I have never dealt with some much poop or pee in my life. Jake is one poopy kid...I swear every diaper I change has poop in it! This morning was out of was never ending. Of course I was by myself and the only one to witness it...Kevin misses all the good ones :) Prior to having a baby changing diapers grossed me out but now that its part of my daily routine and that it's my babies poop it doesn't bother me at all.
4) Breastfeeding is alot harder then I thought!! I knew I was going to breastfeed Jake...there was no question that I was at least going to try! But man living my life in 3 hour increments is tough! Right now I feed him at 12am, 3am, 6am, 9am, 12pm, 3pm, 6pm and 9pm. But really I am living in 2 hour increments cause its takes usually 45-1hour to feed, burpm change and then put him down and then the next thing I know its time to feed him again. Kevin has been a doll and he feeds him at 6 am so I get to sleep from about 3:45 am to 8 am...heaven! We introduced him to a bottle after 1 week. Kevin wants to be involved as much as possible and I knew that I would need a break at some point. He LOVES having that time with Jake in the mornings and I know how he feels. Even at 3 in the morning I look at his little face and fall more in love with him!
5) I am alot stonger then I thought I was. The first night we brought him home was the scariest night of my life. I had no clue as to what I was doing and I was scared to death that I was doing everything wrong. I have learned that mother intution really exists and I am trust my instincts. For example Jake was super fussy last weekend...very unlike him...nothing we could do would calm him down, he was pushing me away when I was trying to feed him, he wasnt was awful! So I started reserching his symptons and I knew it had to be acid reflux. Sure enough it was..poor thing! Kevin has acid reflux and I guess it's genetic :( Dr. Terry perscribed Zantac so we are now giving it to him 2 times a day. Before that I was giving him Mylicon, not sure it worked at all, then a friend gave me Gripe Water and I am still giving him that and I think that is helping along with teh Zantac. Then my friend Meredith told me about a baby probiotic that we went and bought and gave to him this morning. Too early to tell if its working or not but now I am struggling with how much is to much to give my child? I want more then anything to sooth his acid reflux but I also don't want to pump his body full of medicine!
6) There is no such thing as "me time" anymore. Simple things like showering, going to the bathroom, doing laundry, running to the grocery store are things of the past. Take today for is 4 pm and I am still in my pjs. I am very lucky since Kevin works out of the house. It allows me..on most get up around 7:30 or 8 shower, get ready, pump, eat some breakfast and drink some coffee before it's time to feed Jake. I know it will get easier over time. Yesterday I packed Jake and I up to go to my parents and go to the doctor and it took 2 hours to get out of the house! By the time I got myself ready, got Jake feed and ready, packed his bag, got him in his carseat, then got him in the car, put the stroller in the car..whew..I'm breaking a sweat thinking about it was 2 hrs from when started. I will have arms of steal by the time summer rolls around :)
7) Time really does fly and everyday he looks different and I need to remember to enjoy and savor it all!
8) Without Kevin I would be going crazy. Parenting is a true team sport and I can't imagine doing this without him. I have loved him from the minute I saw him but fell more in love with him the first time I saw him holding Jake.

I would post pictures but I can't figure out an easy way of doing it so as soon as I do I will post some!

Friday, February 12, 2010

What i've been up to lately...

Nothing new except lovin on these guys....

Everyday I hav the best of intentions of posting all the pics from the day Jake arrived....but then it's either time to feed, change, play or sleep! I promise I will get around to it soon. But in the meantime Jake is a blessing and I fall more in love with him everyday..along with Kevin who continues to amaze me everyday...I'm a lucky girl!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Documenting this baby...

I have done a horrible job at documenting this pregnancy! Before I got pregnant I always thought that once I got pregnant I would be that crazy woman that takes pictures every week of her belly while holding a piece of fruit that compares to the size of the baby. Well let's just say that that never happened :( It's not that I didn’t want to it's just that time got the best of me. In my defense I didn’t even show until I was around 22 weeks or so technically I could use any picture before that and put what week I was regardless of the actual one would ever know :) So once I finally started showing I started taking pictures..not many but it was a start. So now here I am going on 40 weeks and having Jake on Tuesday and looking back I want to kick myself for not taking more pictures! Man, I hope I get better when he gets here! So here are some pics for your viewing pleasure..

This is the only place that you will ever see my actual belly...

We go in on Tuesday at 7:30 am. We can't wait! I wish we were going in tomorrow!! I know that neither or us will be able to sleep on Monday night. Right now I am anxious, scared, nervous...a little bit of everything. This is the first time in my life that I can actually say that I have no clue as to what we are getting ourselves in to and have no idea what we are going to do once he gets here but I also know that as long as I have Kev by my side everything will be fine. Wish us luck!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

So close...

2/2/2010...doesn't that sound like the best day ever to have a baby??? Well I think so! Knowing that there is an "end" date in sight is so exciting yet scary at the same time. Jake is weighing in at 7lbs and his kidney's look great and seem to be healing on their own!!! I am a little nervous about his weight I might be giving birth to a butterball...yikes! I was so ready for him get here and now I need him to stay in as my parents will be gone, starting tomorrow thru next Friday, so I can't have him any time before that! I told Mom that I would keep my legs crossed all next week :) So this week was THE.LONGEST.WEEK.EVER and I am sure next week will feel even longer! Ahh the anticipation is killing me! So in order to keep myself busy I will do all of the following things next week to hopefully pass the time:

1) Shower and get ready everyday next week-I know this sounds silly and possibly gross to some but since I am not working I have NOTHING TO DO so showering has been at the bottom of my list these days. I told Laura last night that I was still in my pjs and I was talking to her at 9pm...gross! It would be just my luck to go into labor being stinky with greasy hair..blah!

2) Go to the grocery store and actually cook dinner all next week-dinner lately has consisted of mac and cheese, brownies, M&M's, ice cream, meatballs..basically anything goes and poor Kevin has been left to fend for himself. Lucky for me he will eat anything and is not picky at all so he has finished all of the left overs and eaten random things out of the pantry that have probably been sitting there for years...he's so sweet :)

3) Figure out the car seat base-I don't know why I can't figure it looks so simple in my car manual but for some reason I cannot do it! I think I have tried every day this week and I get frustrated and give up and think "maybe tomorrow I will figure it out"

4) Get all the laundry done-I don't mind doing putting it in the washing machine is fine it’s the switching it to the dryer and folding it that gets me. Most of the time the clothes just sit in the dryer for days and I pick out stuff if I need it and won't fold it until I absolutely have to...I am sure my Mom is mortified reading this..No Mom I do not immediately take things out of the dryer nor do I iron every piece of clothing..I iron as I go....don't judge...

5) Enjoy the last few days that Kev and I have together...just the two of us. He is the best and I am way too lucky to have him as a husband. We joke that we will be fighting over who gets to hold Jake...Kev can't wait and I can't wait to see him hold him for the first time...brings tears to my eyes as I type thinking about it as it's been our dream to have children and it's about to come true!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

37 weeks and 1 day

37 weeks and 1 day...yes everyday counts when you are this far along! Went to the doctor yesterday and I am 1 cm dilated and she could feel his head! Jake is making moves and I am so happy about it! I need this baby out of me. Don't get me wrong I have enjoyed being pregnant. I have been blessed with a great pregnancy! No morning sickness, swelling, weird food cravings...nothing! Don't hate me! I truly feel for some of my friends that have been horribly sick...I can't imagine...I hate being nauseous even for a minute so the thought of being that way for months sounds down right miserable. My sister comes in town this weekend and I can't wait to spend some quality time with her before the baby comes. She is due in June, with a sweet baby boy, and Tulsa doesn't have the best selection of baby stores, clothes etc so we are planning on shopping, eating and being together. I hate that she lives in Tulsa but happy that she and my BIL have a great life there but I miss them both so much and with both of us having babies makes it even worse. I still remember my Mom taking us in the summer time to meet half way between Stillwater and Dallas to drop us off with my Aunt. I guess that will be Mikah and I someday with the boys! Maybe one day they will move to Dallas..Mikah are you reading this...make it happen :)  2010 is going to be a HUGE year for my parents! Not only are they going to be grandparents X 2 but Merda is getting married and they will be celebrating their 30th wedding anniversary on February 9th! My original due date was the 10th...that would have been a great gift to them and I was talking to Mikah the other day and I was telling her how the doctor said she would induce me on the 2nd if Jake wasn't here yet or if I wasn't comfortable with being induced I could wait until the 9th...Mikah thought that was a great idea I on the other hand told her that being 1 extra week pregnant was NOT.GOING.TO.HAPPEN. Until you are pregnant you will never know the amount of pain that is associated with the final weeks of pregnancy and I say this without even having the baby yet...I am in for it!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I did it!

I did it! I finally created my blog! I have onl been talking about it for years now and last night as I was laying in bed I decided that today would be the day! Barbs, are you proud of me?? I can't promise exciting entries but I can promise you honest entries about life as a first time Mom. Yikes, am I really going to be a Mom? I still feel so young and quite honestly sometimes not ready! To say that I have been having some bad days is an understatement. I have always been a laid back,not overly emotional person but these days I am border line crazy! I have been so down in the dumps that Kev even gave me my "push prize", a beautiful diamond and rubies eternity band, early cause he said he couldn't stand seeing me so upset! He is the best husband ever and even brought me my favorite flowers and the sweetest card home. Needless to say he turned my day around :) It doesn't help that I am currently unemployed which only causes me to think, stress out and analyze more. At least if I had a job I would have something to keep my mind off these last few weeks of being pregnant. Instead, as i've said before, its Groundhogs Day, EVERYDAY, from me and its getting really old! Maybe its a sign since his birthday will be February 2nd, which is Groundhogs Day, if he doesn't come sooner..please come sooner!!! Anywho...nothing to exciting to post about just another Tuesday, another long day of watching Regis and Kelly, The View, AMC, BB and many more all the while trying to keep myself from watching A Baby Story..oh the long days.